Lately, I have been feeling rotten, sad, sickly, mad.
Appointment at endocrinologist revealed nothing new.
For those Addisonians that understand these numbers…..
All incredibly low…ACTH and DHEA hasn’t been this low in many years. Only thing I can do is increase DHEA. I have been taking 12.5 mg, so will up it to 25 daily for a short while, and then every other day 12.5 / 25 mg and see if I can get in the normal range again. I’m taking 25 mg Cortef daily, can’t increase that.
I had a dental visit last week. Fillings are falling out every month or so, I have cracked three teeth…my mouth is a mess. It is the steroids. I shudder to think what is happening to my bones.
Because I had such a terrible time this summer with the heat, my endo wants to try Florinef next summer. Even though I am secondary and don’t take it and don’t need it, she thinks it might help me with the heat. We shall see.
I had a “talk” with the endo when I saw her. I explained to her that my outlook and expectations of my illness have completely changed.
There is no cure or any of this, I am going to stop looking at her for a cure. I know very few Addisonian’s’ that feel good all the time. The few days I get that I can function are few and far between, so I will be thankful for those days, and just accept the bad days.
Se looked at me and simply said that I might be better off thinking this way. Wishing and hoping for a spontaneous cure is unrealistic. Short of a miracle, which could happen, I am stuck with this.
I am not giving up, I am just giving in.
I love this song….it makes me wanna dance.